In this first post I shall give a abbreviated history of recent events in my life in order that readers may understand better that which I shall write about. For anyone requiring more details, my former blog may be found at http://rgray1981.blog.co.uk/.
In the past month I have come out of submissive service to Dominant Woman. I was Her consensual servant and intimately involved with Her for 8 years. Whilst on the estate I took on the role of HM/butler for Victoria, as well as cook and musical entertainment for Herself and Her guests when called for.
In essence I am having to begin my life anew and it has not been without it's difficulties to date. I was, and am still, very much in love with Her.
Currently I have moved back to my parents home in Cambridgeshire primarily for the emotional support my family can provide until I am able to lift myself out of the mire. I am under treatment with a therapist to help me find my way back into the stream of life.
I realise this is quite personal for a first posting. Many have questioned my need to speak openly about my life in a blog. I can only say that I am very private in person. I find it difficult to speak in the presence of people about matters which I feel are perhaps too intimate. In blogs I have a greater sense of freedom and peace. Writing is much easier for me. It soothes my soul.
There are feelings that need to be released. At this point in my life I feel sorrowful and confused about the direction I should take. After a very regimented existance with Ms, I feel as though I am in freefall now. I have no purpose in life. I do not truly know where to begin.
For now I will simply write my feelings. This is mainly a therepeutic venture as I feel sure no one will read this at first. I have no friends here. These things take a bit of time.
Chauncey
About Me
- Chauncey
- I am a rather private individual who appreciates quiet thoughtful moments alone. I am a classically trained musician with a special interest in woodwinds.
Blog Archive
Woodwinds
Favourite Composers (Classical)
- Bach
- Bartok
- Beethoven
- Bizet
- Brahms
- Chopin
- Copland
- Debussy
- Dvorak
- Elgar
- Faure
- Grieg
- Handel
- Haydn
- Holst
- Jenkins
- Liszt
- Massenet
- Mendelssohn
- Mozart
- Pachebel
- Poulenc
- Prokofiev
- Rachmaninov
- Ravel
- Salieri
- Satie
- Schubert
- Shostakovich
- Sibelius
- Sousa
- Stockhousen
- Strauss
- Stravinsky
- Tchaikovsky
- Verdi
- Vivaldi
Richard Stoltzman
Music That Seems To Be The Theme For My Life At Present
Russian National Orchestra Wind Quintet
Andrey Rubtsov, Principal Oboist for the RNO
Believe it or not, there are some women who will say that seeing a man's mouth on a woodwind instrument excites them. ( Yes, This was once said to me.)
4 comments:
Hi There,
It is lovely to hear you blogging again but so sad over what has happened. I hope that you will fill in the missing chapters for me sometime..
If you ever need me, for anything.. then please just email. Im not much use at the best of times, but I do have a very good set of ears and know what it is like not to have many friends and feel alone.
Take care xxx
Hi Ryan,
I feel honoured that you've shared the link to you new blog with me.
I hope things work out for you, I really do.
Take care Ryan, take care.
Landers x
(Rob)
Dear Adie and Rob,
I am quite touched that you both have followed me here.
It is difficult to explain why I had to move. I truly did not wish to leave Blog.co.uk, but the situation being what it is at this time I felt I had no choice.
It is astounding how cruel some people can be to a fellow human even in a time of distress. There was quite a bit of exception taken to my 'bit better' posting and that decided the matter for me.
I am very grateful that you both have honoured me with your comments and offered your support. Were you here I would embrace you.
Ryan xx
You had your reasons for leaving and I'm not going to question them, it's not my place or right to do that, I'm just pleased your shared the link so I can not only continue to read your writing, which is excellent, but can also offer my support, readership and my friendship if you need it.
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